what else could it be? Jeff.

I ate for the first time, since monday, today...smoking is going ok...it still isn't fun...but smelling like Jeff...well, I think that calms me more than the smoking does. I miss him. I need to talk to him. I need to be done with this separation...I need him back in my life...but that will never happen...until he will talk to me. As of right now, he might be ignoring me...or might have left his phone at home...I can't be sure. I miss him so...I love him so...I just pray that he still loves me...loves me the way he used to...