run

I just "ran" almost 4 miles...ok, so really I ran maybe a mile of it total...the rest I walked...I almost couldn't make it home. I was out in my sports bra and the pink "Camen Islands" shorts...well, we all know where those are from, no need to relish. It was very helpful...as much as I'm in excruciating pain right now...it is probably healthier than cutting, and yet...it's so much harder...does release those endorphins that help a lot. Also...no smoking before running. I think I should stick to when I'm driving alone, or drinking...don't want to be too crazy...how long does it take to get addicted though...a pack? a week? a month? Why anyone keeps it up past the first couple is beyond me...its pain for a tiny little head rush...I mean...wtf? Anyway...I couldn't even stand long enough to get dressed after the shower...OH! So it didn't even take me another day to get under 140! Woot...at this rate I'll be out of the 30's by next week...that would be amazing. Anyway...must sleep...falling asleep to Ke$ha...serious? Yes. (Am I starting to /really/ talk to myself?? Haha....)