I got to be with him today...an hour...two...but now he's gone again...will I ever have him back? He'll never forgive me...I'll never forgive myself. I still could swear I'm pregnant now...my nipples are even darker...it might be a hysterical pregnancy...I'm hysterical enough...part of me wishes for it enough...part of him...half him, half me...with me always...growing inside me...the two of us...perfect. I had my chance, didn't I? And now I'll hate myself forever...our son would have been one in two months...with curly blonde hair and the bluest eyes. I saw his face once...in a picture of my love...he was beautiful...I think he's still waiting...I could die...
- Cory (from the phone)
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