six days before you decided that you didn't love me anymore...that you didn't want us to be together, that I wasn't worth it...six days before you said "Horrid girlfriend? Hah. You're the best girlfriend in the world"
I can't get over this. How can I just get over this like you? How can I just forget when less than ten days ago we were so in love? Was it all a lie? What happened? I need to know what happened! I'm dying...I'm dying inside...I need to know, if I at least knew how you could not want me anymore...then maybe I could move on...just tell me why...please...I'm begging...I don't know what to do...I'm dying.What happened? Please? What happened?
I can't bear it without you. Do you know what it means to love unconditionally? I do...that's how I love you...that's how I feel about you. You did this to me, you destroyed me...you wrecked me...but if you could go back to feeling the way you did...to loving me like I know you truly did...I know it, you can't fake that, I know you felt it, I know you believed we were soul mates. If you could go back to feeling that way about me...I would take you back. I want to work on this, I want to fix whatever is broken, whatever happened...can't we fix it?
I couldn't send it...I've always been weak, I've always just bugged him, and talked to him, and forced it...I shouldn't send it...but I typed it in the box...I wanted to send it.....
Now that I don't have Eva as a buffer...I can't stop crying...I can't stop. I can barely type...but what else can I do...I can't stalk him...though I am crazy enough to want to...I can't text him...I can;t message him...I called him...he didn't answer. Of course he didn't answer...I could block my number and call...but he doesn't want to talk to me...so that's pointless. He doesn't love me anymore...
Karma is brutal...he's gotten his revenge. I hope it makes him happy to know that he got me back for how I hurt him to the power of ten...and I don't have anyone...I want to die. Damn it. I have never felt this way before. I've been an idiot, I've been heart broken,...but never this....never this....
If I never love again, I'll never feel this way again...I will never love again.
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