It's hard to make the right decision when it comes to matters of love. It's even harder when the one you love has no idea what he wants. All he knows is "he doesn't want to lose me forever" but if we could take a "break" and only see each other when it's convienent for him, occassionally, then it would be perfect for him. He wants to have his cake and eat it too...he wants to be able to sleep with me and kiss me and cuddle with me whenever he wants, but to ignore me, flirt with other girls, and have alone time whenever he wants to.
But I can't leave him. Even though I know we aren't in the same place and don't want the same things...I'm in love with him. It's been 10 months, the majority of which have been wonderful, but there's been too much pain...it took me 3 years and an affair to leave Josh even though I was unhappy...oh well. I'll keep trying to just take care of myself and work on falling out of love...
Till next time cyber space ;-)
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