I saw the movie lovely bones tonight. It made me very sad. It made me sad for many reasons but the one reason I came here to write about it the relationship one. It's usually about my relationship that I end up writing about...
The girl died before she got her first kiss...she died before she could love and be loved by the boy...
If I died tomorrow, if Daniel died tomorrow...
I love him. I have feelings for him that scare me at times. I know his feelings aren't the same and it makes me sad to think that I could never know a pure unconditional love. How rare is it to find someone who is perfect for you, and at the same time you are perfect for them? Finding someone who is perfect for you is hard enough, but then being just right for them to...even less likely.
Am I becoming a pessimist? Or are my hopes just too unrealistic? Am I pushing a relationship and trying to make it something it's not?
D and I are now going to be "non-exclusive". I know he needs this...I know he needs more before we could be the right couple. I don't know that we could be right even if he experiences more and figures himself out more...but I hope that we could. Right now the fact that he wants this is proof enough that he needs it. I'm not planning on dating anyone else, I have far too much to do as it is...
I think I'll write more later...D is here now and I want to spend some time with him.
- Cory (from the phone)
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